Invidiosus

She's painfully aware of what she hasn't:
Your opportunities, advantages, and blessings.
She's earnestly envious of your realities;
Builds a thought wall of jealous resentment.

She won't near for fear of loathing.
Ignoring you is easier; she shalt not covet.
Without looking, there is nothing to compare;
No thoughts become invidiously invasive.

You and your differences disappear.
No relationship, thoughtfulness, support, or love.
She thinks she's safely missing out on you.
You are also sadly missing out on her.

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I used to feel intimidated by someone. I learned later, they also felt intimidated by me. It prevented us from having a closer friendship. This kind of thing can easily happen. Jealousy can keep people apart. I think it's a form of enmity. 

I've heard that if you admire something about someone, instead of being jealous, you can choose to be inspired. You can be motivated to work toward certain qualities or possessions. You can choose to love. It doesn't have to form a wall. It doesn't have to destroy or prevent a relationship.

"Invidiosus" sounds like a disease. It is. It's Latin for "envious."